Kissed by a rose

I woke up this morning to the sound of geese flying coming back home from the nice warm weather they've had all winter and i couldnt help but smile really. The geese are coming back which means winter is done. The drab winter that makes everyone a bit more down and that makes skin so dry no amount of moisturizer can save it. My winter this year was full of changes and things that i have never lived before, like walking through snow in a CF trying to stay in pace with everyone else. it was also filled with heartbreak but thats life isnt it. Sometimes things happen and it feels like it becomes winter everywhere, but then one morning you wake up and you can hear sounds that make you remember that spring does come back eventually. Yesterday was an absolutely gorgeous day, the sun was out and the wind was just enough to have a breeze that picked up all the new fresh smells everywhere. I even saw my first butterfly, this teeny little yellow thing but a butterfly nonetheless. The woodpecker's have come out as well, bringing back so many memories of playing in the woods when i was younger. The first rain of the season came this week as well and the smell was intoxicating. I love the smell of rain in the woods, to me it has a level of romance that i just cant explain. I love spring, i love the way it makes me feel and i love the way it makes other people feel.

 

Well, my little adventure of being away from home is almost done. i start packing today and i am so excited. I leave in a week, back to a place that i actually feel appreciated and that i know people love me. Back to my car and my independance of being able to say "hey, i need shampoo" and going to get the shampoo without having to beg someone to take me. is that really such a hard thing to ask for?? i dont think so. Plus, i'm going back to something that i think might turn out to be pretty incredible, i guess only time will tell.

well everyone, this is the last time that i update my blog unti october. i just might get access to it sometime in september but i dont want to say anything for sure on that one. i leave after tomorrow to take my plane and start on this whole thing. im looking forward to it but mostly looking forward to it being done so that i can start my career and wear the combats (their so comfy!). as to what will happen with pascal and i, only time will tell since really right now my relationship is up to the military. were going to make it through basic, but after that i have no clue where im going or what im doing. well everyone, wish me luck. here i go!!!!

Pte Lemieux

something i just dont understand is why everyone cant be pretty. im not talking about that ''everybody is beautiful in their own way'' crap, im talking about actually pretty. you know who they are. its those girls that whenever they put up a picture somewhere they have guys saying stuff like '' you are gorgeous, id take you home'' and things in that general idea. and then other girls put up pictures and their lucky that people even look at them at all. seriously, it sucks. and no matter what a person does to make themselves physically prettier it doesnt work at all. ive been working out since january and i havent seen a difference at all in my body. people have told me that my cheekbones are more defined and that ive toned up in certain places, but thats just a load of crap. what happened is that im turning 20 and starting to lose all the baby fat in my face and in other places. i give up completely on ever trying to be thin because its never going to be happen. EVER!!! cause if it would be meant to happen, it would have happened already. i would have lost some sort of weight since january instead of having it stay at the same thing. and theirs no way im in a 6 months plateau. i give up.

starting today, i have a month left before st-jean starts. today is monday so in exactly four weeks from now im giong to be wondering what the heck im doing and why am i here.lol. thats a given, basically everybody thinks that at the beginning. i have a month left in cold lake and im pretty sure its going to go by very very quickly. even this weekend went by fast. before i know it, itll be my last week here and im still going to not have packed anythign probably. but i have to get everything done since my brother is taking my room as soon as i leave. its going to be a hard decision to decide what i want to bring and what i can do without. by the time i get all my stuff back, itll be for my first posting and ill be starting my life so i have to decide what i want to start it with. im not worried though about this whole thing, i know its going to be great. its just a big step to actually make. im really psyched about taking a plane though, and its paid for on top of that!!!! yay, free ride.

ok, so i finally understand what people mean when they describe that runners high. sure, i absolutely HATE running but i have to do it to get ready for st-jean. the beginning sucks, i really dont want to be there running away. i run on the millenium trail on top of that so all the people leaving and going to base see me and just.... see me.lol. but then i get to the lions park and i know im half way there, so i start running back. and then after i pass the gate and give a cute little smile to the gorgeous military man asking for my id, i feel great. i come back home and actually feel good about myself knowing that i did that. and on top of that tonight i have my belly dancing class which adds to that. if anyone actually read this thing and is currently in cold lake, come to the beach at one oclock on canada day, their will be a belly dance performance (and no it wont be just me dancing, lol). it will be quite fun to watch.

 

6 weeks left........

 

Lysanne

ok, so ive officially come to the point in this whole military ordeal where im actually starting to get kind of freaked out. im starting to realize more and more what exactly is happening in my life and i have to say that its really freaking me out. im really mostly scared about not being able to do it physically and holding everyone back which is probably a good thing that im this scared because it will motivate me to actually work really hard in the meantime. i have six weeks left to work out as much as i can. oh, and rent the movie G.I.Jane as personal motivation. ok, so i know that she joins the navy seals and its completely different, but still, its going to be motivation none the less. and now....i have to go motivate myself to go the gym. see ya!!!!

ah, its a gorgeous day today. a little windy but all around gorgeous. and what am i doing inside??? im waiting for my clothes to finish drying so that i can go for my run (yay) and then go to wal mart. exciting i know. but walmart is necessary. ive had my hair dyed twice already to get it back to its dark brown (never going blonde again) and it still hasnt taken to the darkness that i want. well what do you expect!?!?!?! i get my hair dyed and the hair dresser puts a bunch of product in it (including wax) and then she tells me i cant wash my hair for 48 hours. ewwww..... i really didnt appreciate the wax in it. so now im going to get my color from a box, something i havent done in over two years because the last time i cried cause it was so dark. but i want it dark!!! especially with the summer, it gets light so quickly. and it wont be a fuss when im in st-jean in.....less then two months now. scary!!!! lol. i cant wait to do that though. meet a bunch of people, alot of them my age, all going through the exact same thing as me. lol. its going to be great!!!!!!!